April 1, 2016

Why is self assurance so difficult to achieve? Sure, it's easy to fake it. It's so simple to convince everyone around you that you love yourself and that you know exactly what you're doing with your life, but many of us don't feel that way. We promote self confidence, saying that everyone should have it, and I believe that, but it's not that easy. It feels impossible actually, to be proud of who I am and what I can do, when I feel like something can always be better, like I can always be working harder than I am. I am never fulfilled. I never let those around me know, I show them that I am content with this version of myself, but then it feels as if I am lying. They question why I can accept myself but they cannot. To them I say: I am in the very same boat as you, mine just has a fresh coat of paint that hides the disappointment below.